Tonight is one of those nights! I feel like the worst mother alive right now! I had MARY go in my bed and try to fall asleep while I fixed up her bed... She then started to ask for cocoa puffs in a bag. My blood instantly boiled because
A: she had 2 yogurts before bed
B: I hate when people eat food that gets itchy crumbs all over my bed...
So I rudely said NO! She kept asking- I lost my temper and yelled NO- she started crying and I got even more mad. So I pulled her out of my bed and had her start walking to her bed and when she was starting to walk she tripped and fell... I feel horrible- I feel like I just beat my child! She cried so sadly and I calmed down and comforted her... She laid in her bed and I got the spoiled turd some cocoa puffs... She only ate like a few and fell asleep quick.
Now this is my view:
And I can't help but cry! She is my baby! I love her so much and am sooo thankful that Heavenly Father entrusted me with this beautiful child! She is our little miracle!
I know we need to get back in the groove of things, since spring break ruined all our routines!
I just feel so terrible! I really want to be a patient and loving mother!
How do you stay patient? What am I doing wrong?
I can't wait to be living with Will again and be moved to Twin Falls...
This is how I feel lately!
I want to be the best mom to my Maresbears! She doesn't deserve an impatient and rude mommy!!!
Love you so much Maresbears!!!!!
